Married To An Addict..
My husband and I have been together for 4 years. This year we will celebrate our 3rd wedding anniversary. I feel like in our 3 years of marriage we have experience more trouble than most. Before we got married, my husband started messing with pills.. Shortly after we got married, the pills turned into a pretty bad addiction. I left. After a month or so, he told me he was taking his meds like he was supposed to. No more snorting. We tried it again.. For the first month, things were good. Then the mild addiction turned into a life threatening addiction. I was working full time and he would take my check every pay day because he "controlled finances". Apparently the only finances he cared about was buying his pills. He pawned my wedding ring for pill money, borrowed thousands of dollars from family. He would fall asleep randomly through out the day.. While i was at work he would keep his 9 yr old son home from school to watch the baby. We got evicted because he didnt pay the bills. I had to pawn things just to feed my kids. I felt I was just there to be the house keeper and take care of the 3 kids. Not to mention wait on him hand and foot. Rarely he got out of bed. Always sleeping. Finally I told he was to go to rehab or I was leaving. He went but after he got back I was still having to do everything for everyone and still work a full time job and try to find time to study. So me and my daughter left. After a month of being gone, SRS was called on the other two kids for truancy. He got evicted from that house too, so i let him come stay in my spare bedroom. He wanted me back so was he was doing stuff, cleaning and helping with our daughter. Shortly after he moved in i lost my job so I was relying on him to pay bills. He told me if I didn't get back with him he was moving out and I had to figure out how to survive. So I felt I had to. Now we're "back together" and he's sober. But he doesn't do anything to help me. I'm taking care of all three kids. Giving him his food in bed. He's sleeping or watching movies. He never helps. I feel like this depression I'm in is affecting my parenting because I'm always so tired and mad that I have no help. I feel the only way I can be happy is divorce, but I don't want to walk out on the older two because their mom is a meth addict and she isn't in the picture really. Im so lost.