Is It a Marriage?
I am wondering how I got to this point in my life. My husband and I have not had sex for 15 years. I have been having affairs for three. I don't tell anyone about my private life. I have been lucky, I have found men I can trust who are in similiar situations. I am finally at times happy and centered. However, in the back of my mind I know I deserve more. I love the closness of a warm male next to me, the deep kisses, being held and cuddled. I read the repair you marriage books, shared all the information with my husband but nothing changes. I have changed. Since figuring out I am desirable, I feel younger. am more relaxed and my husband and I no longer fight. So I guess that is a good thing. Is it worth staying in my marriage to keep up the facade or should I leave? OR is it even a marriage?