Is It Worth the Pain

I have been with my husband for 30 years.  I feel as though I have outgrown him.  He is not dependable when it comes to our relationship.  I wish someone would just sweep me off my feet and make me feel whole again.  I am the bond that keeps my family together and I'm tired of it.  I just want to be able to breathe again.  I know my relationship is going nowhere.  I love him but only as a friend.  We will never be where we were.  I just need to make the right decisions for myself.  I just wish sometimes he would leave on his own.  I might be a little sad but then I know I'll be able to start breathing again.

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2 Responses Mar 24, 2009

I am currently feeling the same way. But I have children involved and feel guilty about this as well. My husband knows I feel so fed up with our situation. He just says I am crazy and need to be put on meds. He is NEVER supportive of anything and I just feel fed up. I also sometimes just wish HE would leave. I don't hate him, just don't feel I love him any more.

Thank you for your comments, they are encouraging and honest. I really do appreciate them. I also forgot to mention I have talked to him and have been very honest about the way I feel. I just don't see a change or any promise for our future to get better.