Starting OverThe past year of my life has been one of revelation and a desire to start over. About 7 years ago i was betrayed by my best friend when he took my girl. That caused me to drop out of high school due to the fact that I could not mentally handle seeing them in the school halls together and still concentrate on my grades. I could not mentally heal unless i didnt see them, so theres where the dropping out happened. Through deeper mental forensics I wont get into, the situation caused me to use alcohol to cope, and thus being lazy, and thus causing me to not be able to get hired anywhere because i have a weak resume. I still hang out with the person who betrayed me, because she ended up leaving him and I "forgave" him. So, the past 7 years I have spent with hanging out with him and other people of the circle, and for the past year I have been under what I am interpreting as a revelation that It was being friends with these kind of people in the first place was the spark of the events of my mental downfall. Now, I am looking for the slightest excuse and financial means to just simply escape and change location and meet new people, but new people that match my current and new found intelligence about handling being betrayed and learning from mistakes. I do blame that single event mentioned at the beginning of this story for the ruining of my life, and now the people associated with the event and the life i still barely tolerate are obsolete to me. These people do not know anything about these feelings. Also, whenever I do move away, I feel justified that I do not even owe them the explanation of why I am going, they will be lucky to even get a goodbye. Should I fill them in on the reason/reasons or should I simply do what I think is more logical and quote "Go Ghost" on them.
KillBetrayal 22-25, M 2 Responses 1 Aug 20, 2012