I Want to Run Away

I want to keep running on and on and on without any destination just out of this gloomy, deppresive place....miles away from this monotonous, boring and dull life. I feel my whole life revolves around my boyfriend and his happiness. But what about my interest? what about my life, my feelings, my thinkings? I cant stand it anymore. I just want to disappear in thin air. I just want to be invisible or to run away in a new world but i dont have any other place to go to or no family to look towards to. he and i share the house so i cant escape him at all. I feel completely stucked up. I want a fresh begging and a new start. i deserve more tha what i am getting from my life. I dont know what to do, where to go.... My deepest desire is to get some change, some excitement, so love, some LIFE!
evelina evelina
22-25, F
2 Responses Sep 16, 2007

try talking to him about it. is he making the decisions and not including you in the making or is he not giving you enough love and attention? either way, talking about it will let him know what you're thinking and how you feel about the way he's treating you.

Dear friend, I am feeling the same, and for years, stucked up,Blocked, like a prisoner in my parents house.<br />
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And I escaped many times from home,and I came back, but nothing changing, they are still torturing me mentally, and morally, and making me dislike my life.<br />
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I wish like u to live away from them, from their country and forever!