I want to keep running on and on and on without any destination just out of this gloomy, deppresive place....miles away from this monotonous, boring and dull life. I feel my whole life revolves around my boyfriend and his happiness. But what about my interest? what about my life, my feelings, my thinkings? I cant stand it anymore. I just want to disappear in thin air. I just want to be invisible or to run away in a new world but i dont have any other place to go to or no family to look towards to. he and i share the house so i cant escape him at all. I feel completely stucked up. I want a fresh begging and a new start. i deserve more tha what i am getting from my life. I dont know what to do, where to go.... My deepest desire is to get some change, some excitement, so love, some LIFE!