I Need to Feel Loved and Appreciated
I've come to the conclusion that is just not going to happen for me.. so save some heartache and just give up. Without boring you with my life story it just going to be a reality check for myself that "nope" I'm not on that list. This is my second marriage and I've given it my all. My needs are nothing but problems for everyone else. No one will be able to give me the fullfillment I seek. I based my life on giving to others, caring for them, loving them the way I yearn to be loved.. but when it all comes down to it.. I'll never get what I've put out. That's not even how I want to say it but, I'm a good woman damn it and it's done. Kind words or encouragment could make me melt for days. When I was giving a kind word I freak out and get easily attached because it's something I don't get too much or at all lately. Often wonder what did I do so bad in earlier years that God has decided to punish me and allow my passion to be destroyed. Looking back, for the most part, I did good. Let's just say I did what a wife and mom should do. Now, kids are older, the old man doesn't want me bugging him..and I have nothing to feel worthwhile for. My marriage.. HA that's a laugh. Wish I could go back and choose a man who was supposed to be the one deserving of all I had to offer. Well I can't so guess I'll go finish my wine that I love and appreciate it's buzz it's given me. ;)
By:
Calif39
Age:
36-40
,
Female
