What If

I can't ever forgive myself for getting starting a relationship with a girl I knew years ago. Many years ago, I knew a girl who we will call Julie. That isn't her real name, we will just call her that. I was very attracted to Julie and she had a huge crush on me. I saw her sporadically through her teenage years and in my early 20s. Anyway, I saw her at a restaurant one night and we got to talking and I meant to get her number but I chickened out and didn't do it. It turned out that she was planning on moving to Israel and I never saw her again. I can't believe how stupid I was, so few women are attracted to me and Julie was a complete 10, hot as hell and a great person as well. I found out through mutual friends that now she is married and has a couple children. I wish her good luck, but I can't help but wonder what would have happened if I had been more courageous.