I Need to Get Away
All I dream about is running away from everything. Running from my past, my baggage, my friends, family, home, memories. I need to disappear from every aspect of my life that I have tainted and fractured. Maybe if I wasn't there for a while, it would allow those places to repair themselves. It would give those people the space they need to forgive.
And although it may seem cowardly to wish to neglect problems rather than face them, to me it seems the only way. How can I possibly stay with all of this surrounding me with the intention of fixing it when every time I am successful I am but a heartbeat away from ruining it all once more.
I cannot stay on this wheel of repair and destroy.
On this devil's circle of penitence and corruption.
But just to run away and escape the weight of this guilt on my mind.
To stop this torture.
This is all I dream about.
And although it may seem cowardly to wish to neglect problems rather than face them, to me it seems the only way. How can I possibly stay with all of this surrounding me with the intention of fixing it when every time I am successful I am but a heartbeat away from ruining it all once more.
I cannot stay on this wheel of repair and destroy.
On this devil's circle of penitence and corruption.
But just to run away and escape the weight of this guilt on my mind.
To stop this torture.
This is all I dream about.
By:
Meerschweinchen
Age:
22-25
,
Female
