Want To Avoid Crashing

I have been on an anti-depressant and anti-psychotic drug since I went through a major depression after my mother died
12 years ago.  Since then I have "reactions" to events occasionally where I feel a sharp pain in my chest, and feel like I am crashing and
have to lay down.
Currently, I am fighting this reaction.  I just went to a memorial service for a best friends father.  I visited with the family and went out for
the meal afterward.
Since then I have been fighting crashing.  At the service I saw her brother whom I dated in high school.  I keep having this great sense
of regret at not ending up married to this man as I was so happy with him in high school.  I know this is irrational..but I can't stop the crashing
feeling.  I am married with two children, my husband is caring but often negative and a downer.   I keep feeling like I blew it.

Help, I don't want to crash.
lovesyellow lovesyellow
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Jul 26, 2010