Still Chasing Perfection

It's much more important to get to where I want to be as opposed to what others want me to be. I guess it might just be an effect from my generations society, but I truly believe that very thin girls are beautiful. I am bisexual and am very attracted to very skinny and light girls, with or without the natural curves.
I personally am on a mission to weigh about 115 lbs., and at a height of 5'8" I realize that to some people 115 may be a bit of an "out-there" goal. I don't want to be able to see my spine or individual ribs or any extremity like that, but I would love to feel confident in a string bikini this summer, and be able to see my hip bones and wear size 0 jeans.
I used to weigh about 190 lbs at my heaviest, and currently weigh about 150. But this really isn't a good enough improvement to me...
I'm not sharing this to get responses like "You should love yourself the way you are" and "You're not fat and 150 is a great weight for your height".. Because I already know what I want. I was just hoping to maybe hear a little encouragement and maybe get some advice on how to speed up this stressful process.
ImpulsiveDecisions ImpulsiveDecisions
18-21, F
3 Responses Jan 8, 2013

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