In My Mind I Feel That I Ne...
In my mind I feel that I need to. I see myself and some days I think "oh hey sexy!", but other days it's...harder to stand.
I get told almost every day that I'm not fat. I don't have a eating disorder or anything like that, but after the comments made by my boyfriends father...and friends from highschool...it's hard to convince myself sometimes that I'm not.
Back in highschool a girl came up to me during art class and asked if I was pregnant. I pratically screamed at her that I wasn't and then she told me that she heard it from this girl. I never did find out who it was that said it, but I know the rumor was running around the school. This followed me of course. after highschool...was in the mall, a coffee shop, and the girl asked if i was pregnant. It was further rubbed in when i said no and she then proceeded to say "are you sure?"
my current boyfriend...told me about something that his fathre said. his father apparently believed that i was pregnant and almost jumped down his throat before he told him that it was just a pudge. it's where all the fat on my body, most of it, is. on my stomach.
So yep. I have a very strong need to lose weight.