I Need To Organize My Soul, Heart And Mind

I DONT EVEN KNOW IF SOMEONE HAS EVER FELT THE WAY I DO RIGHT NOW, I DONT EVEN KNOW IF I WOULD FIND SOMEHTING TO HELP ME HERE BUT I TRY.

 

I FEEL LIKE A MESS INSIDE, I HAVE A LOT OF THINGS THAT I LIKE, A LOT OF THINGS THAT I DONT WANT IN MY LIFE,  BUT EVERYTHING IS DESORGANIZED, I AM LOOKING FOR SPIRITUALITY, MEDITACION BUT NO RELIGIONS, JUST TO FIND MY PATH,  I NEED TO BLEND IN ARMONY ALL THE STYLES THAT I LIKE, PUT EVERYTHING IN ORDER..... A REBORN, A BEGINNING,  TO START TO CONFRONT MY UNSOLVED PROBLEMS.....

HERE IS A LIST OF MY LIKES, WISHES, OR WHATEVER I HAVE OR A NEED TO BE INSIDE MY LIVE:

- THE WIND BLOWING SOFTLY OVER MY FACE

- YOGA

- LESS STRESS

- ANIMAL PROTECTION

- METAL (MUSIC ANC CONCERTS)

- ARABIC, HINDIAN, TRIBAL MUSIC, DANZA AND STYLE, CLOTES, ACCESORIES

- ARTS : TO PAINT AND DRAW WITHOUT FEELING I AM DOING A COMPLETE DESASTER

- ANIME

- MEDITATION

- SPIRITUAL ADVICES....

krishnavilasini krishnavilasini
26-30, F
4 Responses Feb 24, 2010

Ok Krishna - you are on the right path. You have identified things that make you happy. You need more peace in your life, more peace of mind too and contentment. Maybe giving yourself as much time as you can manage and stop chaos in your life will help you get your time under control and focus on you and how to achieve that inner peace. I always say people should take at least one hour out of every day just for themselves, no matter what else is going on in their lives. They deserve that solitude for them. Something as simple as sitting outside and looking at the beautiful sky and its many variations of blue and beautiful clouds. Walking around looking at flowers and enjoying their scent. Listening to birds sing. Nature has such a calming influence on us. You want to feel the breeze against your skin. It is almost like a prayer, appreciating nature. I do always thank God for the beauty of the day and how it feels to me. This spring is especially sweet with the scent of honeysuckle and wisteria. I love heavily perfumed flowers. I have some divine white lillies that have a very strong scent. Fresh flower scents are so wonderful. So dear... once you slow down and take time for you, i think you will start to find your place in life better and what you really want to experience from it. I believe that prayer leads us to the answers we seek. God is always listening and taking care of us. I don't follow any organized religion anymore. I did for years and also experimented with different religions. God is really the answer, not the social club of church. He brings you spiritual peace and contentment. He helps you to help yourself. I offer a prayer for you that since the time of your post that your life has greatly improved and that you are very very happy! Post again and let us know dear :) God bless you xoxoxo<br />
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To you Eldorai - everything you said about your life and personality is so interesting too. I love the way you do the different things you want to do. That is the point of life to do no harm unto others and engage in what you love to do. You have found many ways to do that and i'm sure you are never bored and always curious about life and exploring it. Such a great positive attitude. Rebelling against authority. I have always thought of myself that way too. I choose to do it in a quiet way following what my heart tells me to do. It is a very great and freeing feeling to live that way. Having good moral values in life. Values that are true to you and who you are. Having goals you work toward accomplishing and taking time for the spiritual part of your life and especially spending time with those you love is so important. It helps you to get grounded and know who you are. It is in the quiet and still moments of your life that you learn about yourself and when answers come. You expressed all those ideas very well and thanks for sharing that post with us :) take care hun xox :)

you're just like me :]

wow you could be me, 10, 20 years ago! I am 36 years old now and still dont know where my destiny lies (although I have fun looking!). One thing I have learnt over the years is that contentment is more important to me than that buzzing happiness. maybe its because i'm getting older, but just 'being' in contenment feels better than chasing a dream I actually am not sure of or even aware of. I was a metal (still am) fan and the whole lifestyle culture meant I could fit in somewhere, but not follow the herd. I feel now my dreams and ambitions are pushed and pulled by society. I don;t have as much say in real life as my dreams do, and thats so frustrating. So I rebelled, as a teenager, even now as a mother my ideas are unconventional. I guess its like a child who rebells against a parents authority (me against society now) as then i feel I have some power over my own destiny. I have dabbled in many so called religons (spiritual ones), like buddhism, spirituality etc. I have made my own rules up and its my own (religon) now...there is no god with a beard for me, but I have faith. And when I think of it, thats typical of me to go against the grain. I think the real danger in life comes when you feel you have to be part of something to have any worth. That leaves so many people feeling worthless and alone. In my life so far I have picked up various beleifs and experiences from the journey I have made so far, I am part Romany, I have spiritualistic beleifs, I am training to be a tattoo artist and I am a counsellor. I have many hats and I have learnt to accept that mostly I will be as changeable as the weather, and that, is something that is constant! I wish you well on your journey, and someone once said to me ''the journey can sometimes be more important than the destination''.....so true xx

You are another who seeks to find who they are, like myself. You change your life to everything you like and nothing else. That is difficult, but not impossible. The world is a common place these days and many people fall in to it's traditions and way of life. There are few who actually want to live a life where they can be who they are and not care of joining in other groups. It sounds like you want to start over and be who you are in spirit as well as the mind. You want to be surrounded by things that comfort you in this new path. I am also searching for all that makes me who I am. People like us can only push forward and change ourselves with our own will since what we want is not part of the world. In my opinion, you are on the right path to finding out who you are. You are not alone in this matter, there are others who seek to begin again as who they are an no one else. Good luck on you journey through your path. If I am wrong then just scratch out everything I said.