This Is One Of The Things That's Been Bothering Me
I get the bad chills whenever I think of the concept of "living life to the fullest". Because for me to do that I have to make a lot of major changes. I'm gonna have to turn everyone's lives upside down. They gonna have to know the real me. They gonna have to decide whether to accept it or not. And that is scary because only then I will feel totally alone. Living life to the fullest will mean I have to disappoint a lot of people and that I have to be ready for the consequences of failing. I haven't lived and the thought of that scares me all the time. I always feel unworthy of anything. I feel like everything has to be deserved, this kind of thinking has been ******* me up. I have a long way to go and I'm scared.