I Don't Want to Be Sad Anymore

The girl of my dreams left me one morning and I can't get over it. I've never ever had a problem getting over anyone before. Actually its always been very easy. I've never loved anyone as much as I loved me. But this time was different and I don't know why. I can't get past our break-up even though its obvious there is nothing there anymore. Usually I just find another girl and move on. This time the other girls have all disappointed me fairly quickly. So I have been stuck for months. I can't snap back into being myself no matter what I do. I'm rambling yet again but dammit I just don't want to be sad anymore. I want to be my normal happy-go-lucky self. Please.
bvb1123 bvb1123
41-45, M
1 Response Aug 4, 2009

I had to leave my husband, I was married two years and he was abusive to me, I loved him dearly and didn't think i'd ever get over him, It's taken a long time. He was an alcoholic, I didn't realize how much he drank when I married him but it only got worse. He was a lot of fun. He had a boat, a pick up and a four wheeler and we would go out on the river and fish, drink, listen to music and just float down the river, it was a blast but then he'd get so drunk that he'd go whack oh on me and start beating me. He also had post tramatic stress disorder from his being in Vietnam and he was prescribed alot of medication that didn't interact well with his meds.