Life Is A Mess

Sorry to hear about all your misfortune! Is there anything I can do?

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hang in there.take it a day at a tym and concentrate only on your studies.you will see good from it

Hi May, wow, that's a lot of rejection, fear, worry of abandonment, perhaps n most likely undeserved guilt, a huge amount of mental problems go along with your life situation. We can't control other peoples actions, but we can choose not to accept all the bad feelings that comes from being abused n mistreated. What your father did was despicable. He flat out abandoned you n mom. But don't believe the lie of satan which will try to convince you somehow it was your fault. IT WASN'T. Or think 4 one second you don't deserve a good father n to be loved unconditionally. CAUSE U DO. Your father hurt you, deeply and those kinds of hurts are called "soul wounds" because it wounds so deep in the heart n mind it can effect everything in our life, if we let it. Don't let it sweety. Go look n a mirror n tell yourself " U r a good person. God loves u. I love u." sounds silly but it's known as "self talk" n we do it n our minds all the time. When we hold n hurts from the past, they r like sores that don't heal. They get infected n fester up 2 cause emotions that threaten 2 overtake our whole lives. Gotta acknowledge, maybe even write a letter to your father n tell him how you feel, how he hurt u, how a part of u hates him 4 doing that, even tho another part of u loves him cause he's your dad. He was supposed to give U unconditional love n provide n protect u. He failed you as a parent. ( u don't have to mail the letter, just get all the hurt out of u ) The recent event of armed robbery has stirred up all those bad feelings from your childhood. You stand at a precipice, a turning point. It would help you to actually go talk to a councilor. One from a woman's group for abuse. And if you don't have a church family, it would help to get one. A church where Gods love is felt. Talking on here is a great first step. If you don't know Jesus, ask Him to show you he is real. Cause he is and He will hear your prayer and help you. He can give you inner healing. People can try but it is a spiritual healing you need. God bless you May. ccu