I feel so unmotivated anymore. I am never really happy and haven't really laughed in a long time. I feel worthless and I'm so afraid of disappointing everyone. I've only told one person how I'm feeling and she doesn't seem to care very much. I feel like everything is fake or meaningless, and I'm not taking care of the things that I know are important. Like school. I'm a freshman in college and I've just been put on academic warning because my grades were so low last semester. If they don't improve, I'll be suspended. I'm digging this big, dark hole around myself and I'm afraid I won't be able to get back out. I'm so overwhelmed by life right now and I can't take a break without disappointing my loved ones. I don't want their view of me to be tarnished in any way but I'm struggling and it's just getting worse and worse.
lillia523 lillia523
Jan 14, 2013