Life Just Isn't Getting Better.

I'm a young teen and lately my life has been turned upside down. I know what you're thinking, you're so young... I started growing up at the age of seven because my mother was a drunk. I had to take care of her (she's fine now and really great). My past and so much more has been eating me alive lately. My best friend just moved to another state, I feel so alone, and I'm lost... My best friend of three years has moved to another state, leaving me all alone (I can never start a real bond because of my trust issues). Next, I feel so lonely. I feel as though I have no one to lean on. Lastly, I am having problems with anxiety and my phobias. I fear death and dieing, not existing any more, and it's killing me! I cry all the time how for no reason and I don't know what's happening. My mom is trying to find me a good therapist... But I just don't know anymore. I need someone to talk to or I'm just going to fade.
LottieKat1 LottieKat1
13-15
1 Response Jan 14, 2013

I do have some friends, but none I am close to. I just can't let them get close to me. But I can write about all this here, because I can hide my real identity. I'm here to talk. We are all here to talk.
But please forgive me if you message me and I don't reply properly, I just don't know what to say most of the time. Most of my conversations revolve around my work, I can't remember the last time I had a completely non-work conversation with anyone.