Unsure

Hello there, I am in a tough realm of thought. I am always anxious. The feelings that I feel are mostly normal, but excessive. Let me start with the present and refer to the past. I'm into this girl and I'm nearly certain that she is into me. It is this uncertainty that is driving insane. It's not that big of a deal but it lingers in my mind throughout the day. I have just met the girl as well and have not developed very substantial feelings, yet. Through past experience, I was in a relationship with an older girl, she was a junior and I was a freshmen. I will not go far into detail of how this suicidal girl ruined a summer vacation and damaged an already unstable self-esteem, but she messed me up. Now I feel as though this girl will not like me, will choose other guys instead of me, and I lack the confidence. I feel as though she is waiting to be swept away by another guy, not me. I do not know why I feel this way. I'm in a deep state of thought that I cannot exit. I just need to talk.

     I have always been a deep thinker, thinking past what is required and analyzing things to death. It shows through my creativity in art and music. Sometimes I hate it. I'm stuck in a reality far more complex than others perceive. 
BenBursell BenBursell
18-21
1 Response Nov 26, 2012

socialpath dont suffer this type of emotion pain so be one