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Numb & Alone...

 Lately my mom is always pushing me away...everytime I go to sit by her she yells at me that she needs her space. She makes really rude comment to me but no one else. So yesterday I wanted to talk to her about things. It hurts me when she does this to me...I don't want to be pushed away. I told her why can't she be more friendly towards me. She says...."I'm your mother not your friend." She used to be both...she used to listen. We never do anything together anymore. Yeah she says, we got o the store,a dn exercise, and talk. I say no mom, I tell you stuff. You never tell me ANYTHING. I'm so freakin shut out and I'm SICK of it. Sick and tired.I need a friend. i lost my best friend and she's in another state doing drugs all the time, and the guy that I'm in love with broke my heart. So EXCUSE me If I just need a friend.

 Then she felt REALLY bad = / And I felt sorta *****-like for losing it. But my plate is flowing over lately with everything. SO MUCH. And I don't like fighting with her. In fact we barely fight because I try to avoid it. But I am sick of being pushed away. I had also had to see my psychiatrist that day so it was just bad overall.

 

 Today things are better. So far, and my mom is more friendly. I hope she can find a way to open up more tome.

PorcelainDoll PorcelainDoll 16-17, F 12 Responses Feb 21, 2008

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That's thething...whenever i try talk to her she pushes me away. I will credit her to the fact that she has been better lately though. <br />
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I'm sorry about you and your mom. I think sometimes being farther away does bring peoplecloser together.<br />
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Thanks for the support & hugs = )<br />
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Morgan

Sorry to hear this! I really hope things get better with you and your mom. I know its hard. My mom and i used to have a horrible relationship. It's still not perfect but we have worked at it and I realize that we just cant live in the same house. which is fine. we can love each other from a distance. <br />
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your mother might also be going through something. you should try and talk to her one day about it. <br />
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just remember that she does love you, even though it may not seem like it sometimes **hugs**

= ] Thanks....& yes that's exctly how it is... things are a lot better.. I wishi could say things could be well with both my parents at once but it doesntseemto work that way.<br />
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Morgan

Ah bless you sweetie! I can sympathise, it sounds alot like me and my mum. Nothing i ever do is good enough, and she always has something negative to say, having two children of my own i know its sometimes hard being a great parent, all we can do is our best. Hope things are ok between you both now.

Thanks Lawrence = ) and it is luckily I think getting there...

It's a good thing that you did. Perhaps your mom will see what some parents do not.<br />
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I hope that your relationship gets better and is on the mend.

= ] It is nice to hear that I suppose, isn't it? The it's not your fault thing. Especially when your used to hearing that it is. <br />
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I'm sorry about your mother. I guess I've learnt that some relationships just can't be saved no matter how hard you try , and sometimes it's no ones fault.<br />
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We do usually have a pretty good relationship. Lately it's been better. I know that I love her to death and ZI think thats why even when I'm mad I keep trying. <br />
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Glad you feel better = )<br />
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Morgan

its not your fault (just like you told me :] on my story). mom's can be like that. but you shouldn't back down from talking to her.<br />
my mother and i never talk and i used to avoid her. its goten so that i dont think a real, honest relationship could be formed with her. you probabyl have a good relationship with your mom, so you shouldn't lose it.<br />
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Thanks for my comment as well, made me feel better after reminising after something like

Thanks, for the advice, although I don't think thats entirely that. I'm sorta the black sheep of the family. And my mom has PTSD.... and shegets really stressed and takes it out on me. I know she loves me, but it's really hard.

darlin, just keep talking to your mom. You need to know that its NOT you. Moms do need their space!!! Just like kids do, you know when you go to your room. I know this because I have 4 kids. Good Luck!!

Yeah, It sorta blew up in my face at the time...but I have hope things will get better = )

it took bravery to talk to her about it, i'm glad you did. i hope things get better soon :)