I'm Sick And Tired Of It....

I am so so so so so SICK of being everyone's therapist. I'm only 15 years old, for goodness sake, yet everyone(most people being older than me) comes to me with their problems and issues. I give them advice, help 'em out, console them, whatever they need.... Don't get me wrong, I love making them feel better, but I have problems too- which they all seem to forget.

I'll admit, my life isn't terrible... It's truly not that bad, but I DO have problems. Compared to some of what I go through, my friends problems seem so petty. That may be biased on my part and a little selfish, but still... it seems no one ever thinks about what I'm going through.

I rarely go to anyone about my own problems. And when I do talk to people, when I finally open up to someone... I'm written off as unimportant and insignificant. I'm told to get over it. I'm told that it'll go away. They make a joke, laugh it off, change the subject. I'm told I'm a pessimist, that I always look at the bad things in life. I'm told all of this by the same people that come to me at 2am, crying about some minor, picayune, inferior problem. So... I've simply stopped talking and closed up, for the most part.

I remember talking to my friend- my best friend- about being fake in school, a while back... you know, like, walking around with a smile, when really, you're on the verge of tears? That kind of fake. Well... I forget the comment I made, but I recall clearly that she said, "What are you talking about? No offense, but you have no reason in your life to be upset and act fake. No reason at all." Her saying this really ticked me off. Honestly, her life is WAY better than mine. She complains about not having things that I would never even dream about. But that's not the point...

The point is, my best friend, among other people, never think about my life and what's going on it. They assume it's all good, they assume I'm okay, so they burden me with their own troubles.

I'm not a therapist. I'm not a counselor. I'm not a shrink.
I'm just a girl that hides behind herself. I'm just messed up. I'm just a kid.
MissSheila MissSheila
18-21, F
1 Response May 12, 2012

you took the words out of my mouth! :0 someone finally understands! and when i try to help these people i cant help but become emotionally invested in them and when they make a bad choice i tink to myself "i shouldve done more to help", "i didnt do enough, its my fault". blah blah blah u get the point. actually this happens with my own sister..ill tell u about it sometime if u wan tot know