Overwhelmed And Exhausted.

One minute I'm fine, the next I just want to crawl into bed and sleep forever.
I'm so overwhelmed with everything going on. I try my hardest to succeed but I'm scared it won't be good enough. This fear isn't just an average feeling of being scared anymore, it's like panic. I'm always panicking that I won't be good enough. I just want to get into a good school and be around smart people, have smart conversations and become a happier human being by feeling accepted and valued as an individual.
I'm just exhausted. I don't like complaining because I know that so many people have it so much worse than me but that's why I joined this site. I guess I just need to vent.
Hopefully it will all work out, hopefully I'm not making the biggest mistake of my life, hopefully I'm being as smart as I think I am about my decisions, and hopefully I'm not blinded by hormones.
freehope freehope
18-21, F
2 Responses Sep 5, 2012

Life can get a little overwhelming sometimes, and thats the point of it all. You don't need to be as smart as the next person. Just be happy with yourself, and if that means being as smart as the next person then you can accomplish it, only because you want to.
Live your life to the fullest. I realize that now. I got so bogged down with exams and things when I did my GCSEs and then I got the good results, and I moved on to my A levels.
The point i am trying to make is, is that you can't be happy with just the stuff you achieve. It has to come within you aswell.
I know about your boyfriend. Your marine. Just hang in there. This is something he decided to do and he won't let you down. Hormones are long gone!! :)

I have a self image problem. I've dealt with anorexia and the constant drive of wanting to be perfect. That behavior had developed in my academic life as well. I'm just stressed but I'll be fine.
By biggest mistake I mean that I am staying in this country to stay with him and make this relationship a little easier or not as hard as it would be if I left. I am originally from germany and planned on going back there but now i'm staying here and although he doesn't really know he is the main reason why. It's stupid and naive to do such a thing because of a person .. a boy! But I'm desperate and hopeless and in love and love makes you do crazy things. Anyways, if you'd like to talk privately message me, I don't like to share too much to openly.

I can understand your need to make good decisions, and trust me you already have an upper hand on most young people in your age group...I just hope you are able to make the decisions you see best for you (no matter what the consequences, that's how we learn) and still be young and enjoy life, not be so overwhelmed by things. Everything will work out as it should :)

how do I have an upper hand on most young people in my age group?
Thank you, and I'm trying. It's just hard sometimes, sometimes it's even hard to enjoy life with my boyfriend being in Japan and all. Regardless, I will keep trying.

I meant that a lot of young people, not all, are not as focused/mature as you are. They're living for the next moment instead of trying to plan a little of their future.

Well, most people my age that I have to do with because of the classes I chose to take are actually ahead of me in the way that they know what they want and how to accomplish it etc.

Well I wish you luck in your decisions, I'm sure you will make the ones you see appropriate.

thank you.

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