What To Do...

i have an eating disorder and I need help, I know that but I don't want it. Part of me just wants my friends to just grab me an force me too but part of me just wants to get sicker (I know how fu*ked up that is) but things have got conciderable worse but part of me is happy about that. Eughhhh I'm so lost and confused and over whelmed. I can't go and get help with out being forced but I know I need it if that makes sense? There's just two sides to it and I don't know what to do
DonkeyTheElf DonkeyTheElf
13-15, F
Nov 27, 2012