You Cannot Fathom It...

i do not think this person can even fathom how much I need them in my life.  They have practicaaly been thru every step of both my childrem from pregnancy #1, all the way thru to 3 years old, and I also have a 2 year old, so this person has been thru a lot of hard times with me.  Unmedicated bipolar disorder and 2 pregnancies, what a f'ing mess.  This person has always been the most support I have ever had in my life.  I want no one but him to be that.  He understands me inside and out, as I do him.  We have such involvement in each's kids and just everyday living.  He is one that if I need comfort, I do not care just to be on the phone and hear him breathe.  That alone is comforting.  What everyone calls those uncomfortable silences I never experienced with him, even if all was silent in our dealings.  HE MAKES ME SOOO HAPPY.  I DO NOT EVER WANT TO BE WITHOUT HIM.

Sad point is I think I unintentionally push him away in ways, as he does to me. 

A little messed up relationship, we have, but I wouldn't give it up for anything.