I Hate My Self

Well .... I really can't find the real words ... I hate my self, I hate the way I look, I'm fat, I never like I'm pretty enough ... Even when people tell me that I am, I always end up thinking that it's all a lie........ It's really sad, sometimes I get up in the morning, get dressed and I'm ready to go out .. I take a deep look in the mirror "you are ugly" then I take off my clothes and go back to bed.
I have a boyfriend, he is really handsome, every girl I know wanna be in my place... They always think that I don't deserve to be with him.... I feel so stupid when I'm with him or when I look at him ... Like, what I am doing here? ... It's not that I don't like my self, I like it, but I never knew how does it feel to love my self or to feel good enough.
I'm proud of the inside of me, I really have a nice heart, I love everyone, I don't judge, I don't hate for no reason, and this thing is killing me... The worst part I can't trust anymore, I have no close friends, no brothers, no sisters, I always feel lonely because I'm always alone... And now I don't feel good enough ... And that makes me wonder about my relationship with my boyfriend, I know he can see the real me, the inside of me, but everyone wants a pretty face and a nice body .....
AmyLee25 AmyLee25
18-21, F
1 Response Dec 7, 2012

I have the same problem, try and talk to your boyfriend about it. Having someone love you and tell you the reasons he loves you will help you love yourself, I promise. Things will get better if you find people who love you and can explain why.