100% Non-girlfriend Material100% NON-Girlfriend Material
I will be 26 the 19th of December. I feel like I will never be good enough to ever be someones girlfriend. I think about this all the time. It makes me depressed and I cry about it a lot. I lack self-confidence and im not that outgoing. Im told all the time how beautiful i am and everyone is always shocked when they hear that i dont have a boyfriend and never have had one before. No one believes me. I dont know what i am doing wrong but i know its got to be me that cant be thought of as girlfriend material. I feel like when getting to know a guy it always starts off great but down the road of "talking" the feelings arnt mutual. either I like them more than they like me or they like me more than i like them (which is rare). There is never a happy medium. I cant win, either i dont talk to them enough or i talk to them too much. Ive been told Id make a great girlfriend, id make a great wife, Im so sweet, Ive been told "Im so glad Ive found you", Ive even heard a few "I love you"s, ive been told a few times that I was "perfect", ive been told that I AM the one that would be breaking his heart. Well how come i am always the one left broken hearted :( I guess ive been told everything i want to hear a guy say to me except being called someones girlfriend. I was close once but he ended up choosing someone else. Why cant I ever be good enough to be someones FIRST choice?