It'S Simpleyes, it's simple. my real father left my mother and me as the only child when i was 6 months. never having any contacts. never seeing each other since then. i only know his photo and i don't really know what it is like to have a father.
then i have a step father, it went bad, and then divorce.
2 men after that, acted like my father but the one lied to my mom and me and then left, the other didn't really wanna marry my mom and we didn't contact each other often now.
yes, i forgave all of them.
but on the other side, i don't wish to figure out how it is like to have a 'real father' or 'love' from a man called father anymore. no hard feelings.