Not Even Close

I have yet to even come close to having a first kiss. For a significant part of my kidhood, the guys were just waay too mean. I couldn't ever take any of my male peers seriously, and I still don't. Now I have these men a few years older than me interested in me. Seeing that, I can't even take love seriously anymore. It's so complicated.
But, I do have better things to occupy me at the moment. Chasing after love is a waste, so I'll just let it come to me. But, I could always buy a life-sized doll as well. :) to get my first kiss.