I Just Have Trouble Articulating Them, At Times

usually, my feelings are very clear to me. how i feel matters more to me than what i think. this may not be the best way, but it's my way, and as i've discovered, the only way for me.

lately, though, my feelings are unknown to me. i feel uneasy, perhaps a touch of anxiety. i have been feeling afraid and unsure - feelings i have little experience with. typically, i am impulsive. i make quick decisions and live with the consequences. i always do what i feel is right for me.

without knowing how i feel, how can i make a decision? i am physically ill when contemplating my future. no path is clear to me. will i be alone? how will i respond to this loneliness? will my dream come true? if not, how will i react to the heartache?

so many questions and no known answers. i feel - unsure. that's the best i can articulate all these feelings churning within.

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6 Responses Mar 8, 2009

take your time. think it out. dont hurry no matter what you do!

tessa1- I am 65 and worry about my wife who loves me so much. And I have no idea how I would deal if she would die. No clue.<br />
All I know is that many are the situation were there love dies before them and some how all these people do seem to go on. <br />
I hope EP is of some help to you and want you to know that I am willing to talk when ever you may want to talk to me...DD

i know how i feel ,lost lonely and afraid of the future now that my gorgeous kev has passed away, how does one go on without a solemate,friend and lover after 35years together?i hope you are able to work out your feelings,i hope i can work out mine too.good luck ,chin up.

I know what you mean. I usually have to spend a lot of time trying to figure out how I feel. I've spent most of my life alienating myself from my feelings. I still believe our feelings can be more important than our futures, whether that leads us to destruction or glory.

"Candide", Voltaire-<br />
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'Let us cultivate our gardens'<br />
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And what DD said.

It is normal for someone your age to be unsure about who they are. How can you know unless you ask these questions? If you knew there would be no problem. Be glad you are asking. <br />
One clue is how you act. Someone may claim that they are such and such but how do they behave?<br />
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Relax, you are evolving. You are…<br />
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One quote that has helped me through many difficult moments is …"all shall be well and all shall be well and all manner of things shall be well"- Julian of Norwich<br />
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If you can use it fine. If not keep searching…DD