In Short..

I can't take this back and forth thing anymore. One month everything is amazing. And he loves me. And it's perfect. And then he goes back to his drugs. And won't even speak to me.

Last time this happened...it was so hard. This time he swore he wouldn't do it again. He swore he wasn't going anywhere. He swore to me. He knew I was scared. I cried my eyes out in front of him. He swore to me it wouldn't happen again....and now he's gone again...

He hurt me so much. There's been too many heartbreaks. He lied to me. He cheated on me. He hid things from me. He begged me to come back to him, and then left me. He came back, just to leave again. This is the third time.

He gives me signs that he's going to make it work, that he wants to...and then I hear from others he just wants me to let go...What do I believe?

I have never been happier than when I'm with him. But nothing else has ever caused me so much pain. And I keep going back...what else can I do?

I never want to fall in love again.

serendipityx serendipityx
18-21
2 Responses Feb 9, 2009

Leave that bum. Feel sorry for him if you must, but leave him. Find someone who will love you and try to take care of you, your emotions and everything else. Love does make the world go around. If you vow to never love again, you will wind up a botter old person. Don't do it. Reaize that everything we can touch will withter and die. Love is all that will remail. God luck.

I'm sorry. Hope things get better soon. <br />
Really.