I Really Didn't.

I just wanted to love you. I was willing to keep it a secret, even if at times I really longed to tell you. I was willing to remain silent, to never tell you, and just make you feel it so you would never actually know for sure, and we would not ruin it by starting a relationship.

I wanted to make you feel secure without making you feel like any conditions were attached. I wanted to heal you. But feelings do not like being ignored, and eventually I ended up as your girlfriend anyway. But I do not like the word 'girlfriend'. It does not quite cover what I wanted to be for you.

What I wanted to do for you was way deeper than I could ever express. So, no honey, I never wanted anything in return. I just wanted to give you what you are missing.

If only I had known how to.

JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente
18-21, F
Feb 23, 2009