I Learnt To Be Accept Who I Am

There was a time when I hated myself. I remember being 19 and waking up one morning after a all night party and just looking at my reflection in mirror. For the first time in my life I hated what I saw. I had been through alot growing up but never once had I hated myself or what I had done however on this morning I did. I hated the fact I drunk so much it made me a monster who didn't care who she hurt, even if it was a friend. I hated the way I was treating the people I cared about, and the way my thoughts would change. It made me realise I was drinking to cover up the problems in my life just like my parents did and that thought is what made me hit rock bottom. I never wanted or want to be anything like my parents.

I changed that day, I stopped drinking and turned my life around. Admittedly I lost alot of friends, some because of the way I had treated them and the damage ran to deep, others because they didn't like the fact I was turning my life around and becoming who I wanted to be. Now I am happier staying at home with the people I care about most. I make myself the person I want to be. 

I still hate the way I acted, the person I was back then but I have learnt to accept it. After all, it is the bad experiences as well as the good that shape who we are and today I am happy with who I am.   
Tigerlilly25 Tigerlilly25
26-30, F
1 Response Jan 22, 2011

Sounds like your doing good. Keep itnup