Why They All StareI dont really know how to start. I suppose that I just want to get it all out. I cant remember how long Ive been this hard on myself. I guess it just seems to keep happening and I dont realize it. I feel like no matter what is really being said in the conversations around me I feel like they are always fixated on me. And not just that Im the center of the conversation but I feel like they are alway focused on my faults . In turn then I become super focused on
all the possible things they are saying. Like the whole world for some reason is trying its hardest to not let me be happy. But really its all in my head. I know its unreasonable to think that people are so focused on what Im doing. Im noone. But still I cant help it. I dont know how to get help because I know that being told there is something wrong with my thinking will just make me more focused on it. Being around people makes me selfconcious, but being alone makes me feel shut off from everything. What babble. That feels like noting was even said that was worth typing.
blackflamingo 22-25, F 3 Responses 0 Dec 29, 2011