Help Me?

A lot of people keep saying that's just highschool drama but let me warn you about what life after highschool is like:



You're still surrounded by the same ******** from highschool except they're off their parents leash now and they're running around rampant.



I unfortunately don't have any inspiring words of wisedom or anything else of the sort. I'm only 23 and I've been waiting to die ever since I was 5. I gave up on killing myself because each failed attempt would hurt me even more so now I'm just waiting to die. Maybe I'll stumble across the reason while I'm still alive, someday. Maybe you will too. You can either continue to hold on to your pain and I've chosen or you can work yourself to near death at a shot at happiness. We live in a world were sadness is free but happiness is something you have to fight for and ****** from the hands of life. You have to decide which one you'd like.

You've gone thru a lot for someone so young.



It can get better man.

Life is something we have no control over, you can't make someone stay with you,and if they don't don't even care. She accused u for cheating? Then she never really trusted u. They made rumors abt you? Then they weren't ur real friends. Actually **** happens, but in situations like these u get to know who ur real friends are. I'm sorry for ur family loss, don't ever say nobody cares, there are people who care abt you, including me. Also, don't try to suicide again, you're really valuable don't settle for less than u deserve. If u can go to a new town,start all over again, forget ur past and try to change ur future...It's hard i know, to feel alone like nobody's there, but remember "In order to have a friend, you should be one"... :)

HI I just joined this EP thing today and was set out to tell my story and sit here with my pitty party when I came across your post. My heart goes out to you and yes some one cares about you! I do and I dont even know you. I cant imagine how hurt and alone you must feel and all the things people have said to you to try to make you feel better. No one can make you feel better about what has happened. It's a horrible thing that you have had to deal with and you are looking for a way out. I have tried to kill myself before and thats something I will never do again. When life is dark and there is no light shinning, its a prison that has been created by you. If you could see just one ray of sunshine, just one, maybe that one ray will bring more. Can you tell me one thing that makes you happy/content? And not a person.

It's very true what YoungFolks said. Time will heal your scars and in the mean time your ointment will be to surround yourself with inspirational, successful, good-hearted people and to keep on living, death is not the answer. Have you ever heard that ingnorance is bliss? Well, I think that you were surrounded by friends you couldn't count on in the first place, they weren't friends at all. Just keep on swimming, keep on swimming, swimming, swimming (Dory from finding nemo lol) ^_^

Highschool, best friends, perfect girl - all this is teenage drama. Real life's not like that. So if you want to leave all of that - just keep living. It fades away anyway.

Life's boils down to much more essential things - Fight, Change, Happiness. If you know, that no matter how much you will Fight, nothing will Change, and you won't have Happiness, not one little bit, I have nothing to tell you.

But I see in your answer you do realize that other people made it through tougher situations.

I've tried to kill myself, and I don't regret it. That was my life then. It was my "dream" and I've followed that. Always follow your dreams. To be happy, make sure those dreams are happy ones - surround yourself with happy, inspirational figures. Read about them, watch movies, improve yourself just a little, every single day.

Real freedom isn't bounded by death. Keep your chin up, no matter where.