Not Happy!!its not so much that i hate the person iv'e become,but more that i hate the person iv'e always been,and my inability to change! people that know me here on ep,know that iv'e always been a loner,and in real life,iv'e always been really quiet and shy and have always been a really sensitive person,but my inability to change all that and become more outgoing,to stop being quiet and do something about my shyness and sensitive personality,has made me resent myself in so many ways.i dont know how many times through the years,iv'e heard people say to me "I used to be quiet and shy,but one day i just decided enough was enough,and i pulled myself out of it!!" and i often think to myself "why have i not been able to do that?" cos i mean,i have to do something about it sooner or later,cos its holding me back in life in so many ways,but sometimes i also think "this is me, its who i am" cos you see,when im on my own and doing my own thing, im quite happy with my life,but its only once i come into contact with other people that i become insecure about myself!!
cowshed123 31-35, M 3 Responses 1 Apr 18, 2012