Left Out

I have always been left out of alot of things. I have always been different. I tried in school to fit in ever group. The popular kids were jerks to me. The nerds always gave me weird looks. The other groups also gave me weird looks. Even in high school, ever one knew me, I was still left out. People were doing stuff with their friends, it made me feel sad. It made me feel bad about myself. I was like what am I am doing wrong.
Even in college, I still feel let out. I hear people doing stuff with their friends and it makes me jelous. I cant figure out what I am doing wrong. It makes me feel bad about myself. I do my best to make friends, but nothing i do works. I guess alot of people dont want to hang around an autism kid. I guess they dont know how to deal with me. I have tried to fit in with every group. The athletes alot of them are jerks. The nerds just look at me weird. The other groups do too. It sucks but that is life.
Thanks for listening

superherojustin superherojustin
22-25, M
5 Responses May 25, 2012

Well your my friend and i like you the way you are. Just thank of me and smile...and know also that JESUS LOVES YOU TOO!

Well i won't leave you out bubba :) luv you :)

:( well I love you for you bubby and i'm here if you need someone to vent or talk to you know that

I agree with Samo. Jerks are jerks, end of story. I know how you feel though, I definitely don't fit in with any of the people in my program at school and as a grad. student living off campus, I don't get to interact with many people outside that area. But at the same time, I realize that a lot of it has to do with the things I choose not to do. I find asinine small talk annoying, I'm not married, don't have kids, don't go clubbing...nothing in common with any of these people. So if I look at it that way, and it may sound egotistical, I'm not left out, they are. My club is just very, very exclusive. Heh.

I have felt like that my whole life too, you are not alone. I have never had many friends or done much with other people either. If people treat you like you are not worth their time, they are usually not worth yours :)