As a child I was abused mentally and emotionally by my Dad. He hated me and tried to murder me. I spent my school years being bullied. I spent my dating years going from one broken heart to the next. I could never keep a job more than 2 weeks. My first marriage was to an abusive man. I'm in my 2nd marriage,another abusive man. I've never known anything but poverty,always had to sacrifice to get things I wanted. Had 7 cars repossesed,evicted from 3 apartments,and lost a house to foreclosure. I've been raped 3 times,and nearly beaten to death by a boyfriend. I was 30 before I was able to move out of my parents' home. I've known nothing but failure,loss,rejection,and defeat,suffering and misery. My children treat me like a slave. They show me nothing but disrespect. My 10 year old hates me. My parents live over 500 miles away from me. My husband's family hates me. My family and me are in a financial crisis,facing losing our home and living on the streets,cuz we have no place to go. We are in debt and can no longer afford to pay our bills and rent. I'm beyond tired. I can't fight anymore. I'm tired of life. Nothing ever gets better. It justs gets worse. I can't continue living this way. I don't want to.