I have been thinking about suicide since I was 15 yr olds, and I am now 27 yr olds. I am sure one day I will kill myself. I work in the health industry and I deal with it every day. I live alone, and no one would find me for days.

I am afraid to get antidepressants from the doctor because I think I would just overdose.

I would never tell my family about my thoughts of suicide because they wouldn't believe me. I have no close friends that I would tell.

I wonder if my psych test showed that I was a suicide risk?? It would probably be a very small funeral, and my family would be very mad at me.

I am a huge disappointment to my family, they act like they are proud of me but really they aren't.
Kiie Kiie
26-30, F
Aug 11, 2010