If I Disappeared Would I Be Missed?

I wounder if I disappeared if I would be missed. This is something that I've always wounder because it wasn't till i was 17 that I realized that the people I knew, actually talked about me when I wasn't there. Honestly it was a huge surprise I figured that once I was out of site that I was out of mind. Even as am about to graduate from college in less then 24hrs they still don't really talk to me, they talk about themselves to me sometimes.

One a slightly messed up note, I honestly believe and can dam near prove without a doubt that if my college graduation and my nephews preschool graduation were the same day or even the same week no one would come from my family. And if one of my friends weren't graduating the same day none of them would show either.

anyways off the self pity, because one day my almost most proof will be legitimate undeniable proof.fml
LeDauz LeDauz
22-25, M
1 Response May 4, 2012

I know how you feel. I really do. I have thought about disappearing, just to figure out if someone would even notice. When I'm at school, they talk to me but the conversations are empty. They don't really care about me or my presence. Or, that's how it used to be. I've always been bullied and made fun off. I had some friends, but they talked behind me back and they wouldn't do for me, the things I did for them. But... instead of feeling miserable (though I feel like that alot), I made myself a promise!

Everytime I see someone who is alone at school, or someone that feels lonely ('cause you notice it if you really want to look closer), I go up to talk to that person. Sometimes it is hard to do, but I know I would've been really glad if someone came to me when I needed someone. I can't change my past, but I can make a difference for other people, just because I can relate. So yes, I've been bullied, but there is something positive: I can change lives! I talk to others and just beeing there, can be a deal! So you can feel bad about your lack of friends in the past, but do something positive with it, so it didn't happen in vain! Make a difference. Be the person you wanted others to be!

I'll pray for you! Never give up!