~ Not Often....but Lately ~

~ I wonder if I had paid attention to my inner child sooner, if the damage to her wouldn't have been as extensive as it is right now. ~

~ I wonder if I had given up on Shane when we were younger, if I'd have met someone better. If I'd be married, with maybe a couple of little ones. ~

~ I wonder if I been more secure in myself & my abilities, if it would have made a difference in our relationship. ~

BUT MOST OF THE TIME (AT LEAST RIGHT NOW), I DON'T WONDER.... I KNOW THAT EVERYTHING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO ME HAS LEAD ME TO THIS PLACE, THIS TIME, & RIGHT NOW ALL I AM IS GRATEFUL & THANKFUL FOR WHAT I HAVE & FOR WHAT I BELIEVE I WILL HAVE............

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2 Responses Mar 14, 2009

That is great. Isn't the present moment AMAZING? When I think of all the things I've gone through that have stank, I think, at this point it doesn't matter because I am happy, I feel warm and cozy and loved and protected. The only time it is bad is when I feel a bit bitter for it, THEN I know I'm out of balance and I have to seek the grace to get back in balance where I'm peaceful and happy. <br />
Keep enjoying the sky. :-)<br />
Love,<br />
Evania

Wow, this is good girl. When you are able to look back, at all the pain, the "mistakes" the suffering, and realize that it was to profit you, to enrich you, you are in a higher plane. Good for you. Keep growing. I'm trying to do the same. We mustn't expect it to be a pain free experience. <br />
Hug,<br />
Evania