The First DayI had my first session with what i call, my head doctor today. It went great. After telling her how i caught my "true love" in many lies and got rid of her, she was actually proud. She mentioned most people with this disorder can't let go of things we think are dear to us. After finding out she was lying to me, it was real easy. Mind you, i still have feelings for her. I know its stupid, but they will too fade with time as this depression will. Only getting an hour of this womans time we didn't get into a lot about me. Not yet. I have an appointment once a week with her. Then it will be every two weeks. Just knowing i have this help is quite a relief. I am still a little troubles about facing this alone. No family here. Not really anyone i can call a "best friend" either to talk to. Eve she said she was worried about that. So I've decided to get my fishing license. After all, i do have close to $500 in fishing gear.
My biggest worry now, is this "true love" contacting me. I still have feelings for her. I'm also a very forgiving person. But i know i can't do that. Unless he gets help for her lies and depression i believe she also has. We can never mix.