Things are getting easier to deal with. I'm calmer and feeling better. I'm getting a LOT more sleep too. That helps. Its the only time you actually heal both mind and body. Eating seems to have come back too. I roasted and ate a whole chicken this weekend. Many of the negative thoughts are there. I'm just finding it easier to deal with them. I still miss someone. That wont change for awhile. The walks have been easier too. Not so much stopping and wondering "What if?". I think thats the hardest thing to overcome. All the "what ifs". But i see them slowly subside. More thoughts of where I'm going enter into mind. So like AA, one day at a time. For now anyways.