One Big Step Closer !
I am fed up with myself. I need my freedom and I need it now! I am 46 years old and feel like I have done so much in my life already, this one BIG thing (not driving) holds me prisoner to my former self.
So a couple of weeks ago, I went to the online DMV site and made an appointment to take the written (permit) test. I downloaded a PDF of the manual and a test program (that was great!) and I studied for an hour a day for a four days.
Yesterday, I realized that my appointment was a half hour away and panicked that I would miss it. I kept this whole thing a secret from my husband as I wanted to do this whole thing ON MY OWN. So I had to run---I put on my running shoes and workout wear and ran! YES physically ran, the 1.5 miles to the DMV and just made it. I was hot and sweaty but I figured, its just a written test..who cares?
I get there, stand in my line and pay the fees. My heart starts to beat and I deep breathe to calm myself down. Then the lady sends me over to get my picture taken! (WHAT? Before I take the test?? Holy hell..I am hot sweaty and the like!) But I took the picture, and proceed to the testing area.
Now as I go through the 32 questions, I constantly remind myself to calm down, slow down and breathe. Rushing will not help me. I consistently hear the examiner telling person after person that they failed! At least 6 times in a row.. all licensed drivers who are failing the test! I tried to ignore that.
I took the test and lightly marked the four questions that I was not sure of. Then I went back and rechecked those answers.
I got in the line to check my test, and kept hearing over and over "I am sorry, you failed. You will have to take the test again." It got to my turn, and she said "Very good. 95%. Go to Window 2 to pick up your forms."
What? I did it? Whoo HOOO! I signed and picked up my forms and looked at my permit with pride. I did it. I have a problem with being anxious with testing to the point of avoidance, so this was a big first step for me.
Now on to driving lessons! I post this for those of you who are not only fearful of driving but fearful of TESTING. If I can do this, anyone can.
My license pic will not be the best but it will show how happy I was!