One More Time..

i did it again
why did i do it
i really don't know
it was there
the blade was sitting right there
it reeled me in
i couldn't say no
now i am bleeding
in pain
but it feels good
i shouldn't think this
i should be ashamed
i cut myself again
it has been 4 months
why did i do it again?
i will tell you why
people are vicious
the rumors
and my family
who can i trust
they all betrayed my trust
this is why the blade reeled me in
its been sitting there for the past 4 months
but today i cracked so i cut
i cut and i am ashamed
i need help
people need to learn i have feelings too