I Don't Have Any Facts For You..

I don't remember the first time I cut, or when it was. I also don't remember when I stopped exactly. I think it's June 10th 2007, but I'm not exactly sure. I also don't know, how long I did it. It must be somewhat around 3 or 4 years.

Sometimes I cut every day, sometimes I cut only like 2 times a month. Sometimes I just used scissors, sometimes a pocket knife (especially in the beginning), then I used pins, and in the end I used razorblades.

I cut various parts of my body, not only my arms. My cuts are hardly visible. I always tried to cut at places nobody sees. Like beneath my watch there is a scar. And there's some at both knees, and ankles, and some other places too.

There's something that kind of shocked me lately.. I don't have to wear long-sleeve shirts anymore, because the obvious scars are fading, and if you don't stare at that one part of my arm (all the scars are very little..) you won't notice it. Well my mum did, she ask me if it was some kind of birthmark or pigmentary abnormality. Well, I just nodded.

I hope that I can leave self injury behind me for the rest of my life. I actually once burned myself a little this year, but I hope I don't do any kind of self-harming ever again.

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3 Responses Jul 15, 2008

I too self injure-like you, not very severe so I never took it too seriously until recently. I realized why I cut...1. because I need to feel something but at that moment I can't handle feeling my emotions and 2. I cut at times in my life that I don't feel I have any other control in my life--If you ever need to talk please don't hesitate to contact me.

I too self harmed.. a friend of mine found out. I didn't want him knowing. But he saw them. He helped me through it , now i am much better. I wish the same to you , message me if you ever need help :)

Good luck with your journey to recovery!! Thanks for joining the group and sharing your story. :)