First Time Desperation ************I have always been fascinated by pee, even as a kid, but only recently did I realize that the reason I liked the thought of having to pee so much is because the pressure turns me on. Then one day recently I was in my room and had to pee, but instead of going to the bathroom right away I held it in. I held it in for longer and longer and realized that in a way, it actually felt good (it helped that I knew the bathroom was right down the hall, so when I got really desperate I could make a run for it. Finally, the pressure got really strong and to hold it in I put my heel by my crotch and leaned on it. Not only did this help, but it felt great! I stayed there for a minute and before long, I started to shudder - I was having an ******!
I looked it up online and realized that since the muscles I use to hold myself are really close to the ****, exercising them stimulates me. Later, I wanted to get turned on by the idea of having to pee so I looked up "pee fetish" on the internet. That is when I discovered this and other pee fetish/desperation groups on experience project. I loved reading people's stories of times when they really had to pee or had seen other pee.
Some people on here enjoy wetting their pants for fun. I would never before have thought that would be enjoyable, since the mess afterward would be gross. Before now, I have even thought that peeing in the shower was gross. But I wanted to take my desperation a little bit further so I figured I would hold my pee for a really long time to get aroused, then go to the shower and pee myself. It wasn't as daring as actually wetting my pants, but I wanted to feel the warmth trickle down my legs.
I drank a lot of water and soda and when I was starting to have to pee, began reading stories on here. It turned me on to read stories about times when people peed in public or really had to pee and then had sex. I want to watch my boyfriend pee now, and if I ever have the opportunity to pee in a semi-public place (like a park), I will. Anyway, I had to pee more and more and got more and more turned on by reading stories of other people peeing. Finally, I had waited long enough so I undressed and headed for the shower. This was a little bit awkward because being naked made me have to pee even more and it was hard to hold myself - plus an accident would have been really obvious at that point. But I walked down the hallway (I live in a college dorm). A couple of my friends were standing right outside the bathroom talking, and I didn't want them to suspect that I was peeing in the shower so I pretended to use the bathroom first. I sat on the toilet and touched myself and even wiped and flushed afterward, but did not pee. This was also hard to do - sit on the toilet without peeing. I turned on the water of the shower to disguise what I was doing but turned it away from me so I could still feel the pee running down my legs. Then, I started to rub my ****. Within seconds I had the most powerful ****** I have ever given myself. It took all my energy not to let out a moan of pleasure, as my friends were still standing outside. I shook so hard that I felt like I could not stand. After I orgasmed I REALLY had to pee. I let myself go and at first the pee came but finally it did. For what must have been two minutes a long, steady stream of **** came out and ran down my legs. It was so warm, and I loved watching it come out. I stood underneath the shower water and let my **** mingle with the water. I peed until I couldn't pee any longer, and it felt SO good.