Living In a Dream...constantly...

As a very small child apparently I learned to cope through fantasy. Movies, books, daydreaming. It went from a mild coping mechanism, to how I view and deal with life as an adult. I've often felt completely ashamed and embarrassed that I have 'imaginary friends' as this just was something I thought I would grow out of. I met another lady who has a similar means of living in this world. We both have different ways of daydreaming, yet we both seem to be doing so for our very lives. It feels like the only way I know how to cope with existence. I'm not sure why. It feels like a gift and a curse all at the same time. People say live in reality, grow up, etc. But all of the other ways people choose to cope with reality are just as bad, if not worse. Alcohol, drugs, hurting themselves, hurting others, violent outbursts, escaping into books and movies and celebrity gossip and news stories, debates, everything of the kind. I don't think daydreaming is so bad, but I do feel completely alone most of the time in how deep I get into it. 

azurej azurej
31-35, F
2 Responses Feb 15, 2009

You sound EXACTLY like me. You may have what I have, which is called Maladaptive Daydreaming. It's a condition that causes excessive, obsessive daydreaming. The daydreaming is often elaborate and detailed, like a book or movie. Take a look at this website to learn more:<br />
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http://daydreamingdisorder.webs.com/

I Daydream a lot. I like it. But I am learning to control this habit as it is affecting my real life.