I Perform Random Acts Of Kindness
I decided last week after watching a guy I went out on a date with allow his dog to slurp the top of his head and the next date to be a skater/surfer who did nothing about being chivalrous, that I've stopped. Done.
why? Because not more then three days later, I will admittingly take the blame for this one, pursued a guy that I thought hey, we could get along, he looks good. Read his profile, liked it... sent him a response liked it. Switched to texting then phone calling until 11:30 at night. Then the next day was a meet and well let's just say too much too fast.
My daughter is having a hard time right now, it's something I need to pay attention too or what communication and trust we just started building back up again is going to be lost. I can't do that.
. And I think this guy is wearing his heart on his sleeve. I don't see how you can fall for someone sooooooo fast just on the first meet? I wasn't feeling the same thing. Not as deep or anything, I knew I felt a connection with him and well.. hearing how he was wanting to zip ahead really made me go okay, where's the emergency brakes again?
My thing is this, when do you know you are ready to have a relationship? I guess I was looking for that heart racing, pulse pounding, eyes popping out of the head moment... and well, I wasn't really getting that from him. Great kisser yep. Excellent body for his age yep.
But.... and there is a but.
When do you know? I keep having doubts and as long as I keep having doubts like this, I know this isn't it.
How do you let someone down easily enough without crushing their existence that you just don't feel the same that they do? I tried. I really did.
why? Because not more then three days later, I will admittingly take the blame for this one, pursued a guy that I thought hey, we could get along, he looks good. Read his profile, liked it... sent him a response liked it. Switched to texting then phone calling until 11:30 at night. Then the next day was a meet and well let's just say too much too fast.
My daughter is having a hard time right now, it's something I need to pay attention too or what communication and trust we just started building back up again is going to be lost. I can't do that.
. And I think this guy is wearing his heart on his sleeve. I don't see how you can fall for someone sooooooo fast just on the first meet? I wasn't feeling the same thing. Not as deep or anything, I knew I felt a connection with him and well.. hearing how he was wanting to zip ahead really made me go okay, where's the emergency brakes again?
My thing is this, when do you know you are ready to have a relationship? I guess I was looking for that heart racing, pulse pounding, eyes popping out of the head moment... and well, I wasn't really getting that from him. Great kisser yep. Excellent body for his age yep.
But.... and there is a but.
When do you know? I keep having doubts and as long as I keep having doubts like this, I know this isn't it.
How do you let someone down easily enough without crushing their existence that you just don't feel the same that they do? I tried. I really did.
By:
favestril
Age:
36-40
,
Female
