I Play With Words
I am a logical overanalytical obsessing individual If ever you are to find a person who studies his use of words its me...
I will think atleast 10 times before I say somthing the majority of the time I even go back and read my stories before posting.
Though I am horrible at grammer. I am not sure why I do this but before I say a statement these proceses happen:
1. Am I right in saying this statement to the person?
2. Will it upset them?
3. What will they say back to me when said?
4. If I am right in saying this is it relavant?
5. Is this the right time to say this?
Also even after all this I still reanalyze those steps over and over and I even sit at home alone thinking and thinking...
The only way I can stop this craziness is music and....thank! Disturbed and Seether there is Music in life! I would go more insane than I already am if there wasnt. There is no need for me to think as much as I do... Some say its good but for me I think way too much about words and my mind can be a dark place thats why I tend to write depessing poetry. Although after writing it, it has a tendancy of making me feel better... I have been avoiding my thoughts and words as much as I can. Which is one of the reasons that I have not been on Ep. I still talked to the very few I hold dear but words have been my enemy because I fear my thoughts....My mind keeps replaying my past and words like "Dark", "Horrible", "Hell" and so forth keep repeating themselves. I have had my Angel help me through all this but still I feel the need to fill my time as much as possible the inevitable time when I do sit and think I become upset...So do I keep doing what I'm doing and fill my time and talk with my closest few only... and never let my mind have time to dwell or do I give myself the time to think and be stuck with my sadness and the dark words that are waiting to come haunt me with every second to pass?
I will think atleast 10 times before I say somthing the majority of the time I even go back and read my stories before posting.
Though I am horrible at grammer. I am not sure why I do this but before I say a statement these proceses happen:
1. Am I right in saying this statement to the person?
2. Will it upset them?
3. What will they say back to me when said?
4. If I am right in saying this is it relavant?
5. Is this the right time to say this?
Also even after all this I still reanalyze those steps over and over and I even sit at home alone thinking and thinking...
The only way I can stop this craziness is music and....thank! Disturbed and Seether there is Music in life! I would go more insane than I already am if there wasnt. There is no need for me to think as much as I do... Some say its good but for me I think way too much about words and my mind can be a dark place thats why I tend to write depessing poetry. Although after writing it, it has a tendancy of making me feel better... I have been avoiding my thoughts and words as much as I can. Which is one of the reasons that I have not been on Ep. I still talked to the very few I hold dear but words have been my enemy because I fear my thoughts....My mind keeps replaying my past and words like "Dark", "Horrible", "Hell" and so forth keep repeating themselves. I have had my Angel help me through all this but still I feel the need to fill my time as much as possible the inevitable time when I do sit and think I become upset...So do I keep doing what I'm doing and fill my time and talk with my closest few only... and never let my mind have time to dwell or do I give myself the time to think and be stuck with my sadness and the dark words that are waiting to come haunt me with every second to pass?
By:
dejin1
Age:
22-25
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Male
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