Help Me Get Over My Fear Please.....

So Since I was a little girl I was afraid of people eating me. I silly and watched an Albert Fish documentary and his words in his letters haunt me. But a few months back I had my first encounter with a real cannibal on this site. I believe he is a member of this group. He was really polite and he only takes volunteers. I was of course scared out of my mind. But I turned the Idea over in my head, and I have come to the conclusion if one says okay to being eaten, it is okay. I know that it is a way of life and I am known to have an alternative lifestyle. (Not this far of an alternative though.) I do not want to be afraid of people I shouldn't. Please help me understand......