Can'T Do It Anymore.

I have been put through hell these past few years. I smile to keep the questions away. I'm always getting hurt, and I just don't know how much more I can handle before I just completely shatter. Things still haunt me from elementary school, middle school, and even high school. I have not been happy in years. I am lonely. Every time I get close to someone, they shut me out as if I don't exist anymore. My heart is way too big. It's the little things that hurt the most. I don't like walking around holding the tears back because of people just really not giving a **** about me. They never have and they never will. I've never had a "close friend" and I'm always replaced for something better. I can't even look at some people without my heart sinking into my stomach. I just don't know what to do.
cheerisawesome cheerisawesome
22-25, F
Sep 3, 2013